Okay, haven't posted since May it seems. Well, this thread seems to be at least as good a place to give an explanation before I disappear into the aether once more.
I'm... not well. Feels like I've been struggling and--well, I've been in a pretty dark place for the past few weeks and months. Even to the point where I just "it" to end. I don't I feel this growing disconnect from the real world and growing disinterest from engaging with it. As of late I noticed that I use fictional characters (usually pre-adolescent males) as avatars for my social media accounts. I honestly hate looking in the mirror; I often tell myself that "this is not my body" and that "this is not my life." I've also been struggling with work and money as of late and don't know if I will be able to sustain myself for much longer or if I really want to.
I don't know if I want to disclose personal details. All I'm willing to say at this moment is that I don't know if I have the strength to move forward. The good news is that I finally got through to a therapist with Alberta Health but I really don't know how what to do right now.