I just lost about 2 years worth of personal side work because my [chameleon sting]ing flash drive was bent inward by someone and the laptop I made the backups to has been completely and thoroughly broken. On top of all of this, now I find out that I'm not locked in for another semester of college as I once thought I was, I can't fix it for myself since so many hands are all involved with it, and yet again I realize that at age 19, borderline 20, that there's only so much I can do to maintain the illusion of being independent and working towards my goals at this point. I want to freaking cry, rage, turn over tea tables, throw tea tables though windows, the works, and yet I can't even do that much because I've conditioned myself to a near distant and catatonic state. I don't even believe in the anger that I currently possess basically.
Am I insane?