Honestly half of it is how I'm always am, when I'm looking for something I really like having help and not jokes but the other half is the frustration of not finding what I'm looking for too, which feeds into that "not in the mood for jokes mentality". Honestly.....nothing frustrates me more than not finding the sufficient answers I want/need.
[spoiler]And probably a bit of just finishing my moon sickness for this month too, hence the random holy [parasitic bomb] I am crying because hormones and [parasitic bomb] I was feeling on Monday.[/spoiler]
Like these are the absolute best references for boobs I can find but I don't want a purely "anime" example.
This one has the problem of boobs defying gravity, then again I'm sure these are the Soul Caliber Girls so it makes sense why this is unrealistic.
This one has kind of less of that but at the same time I don't think it's a good example either, something about it doesn't feel right....
Other than that I keep finding furries, gag boobs, fetish and amateur DA quality stuff for boob references. And also other completely unrelated stuff.
Also I barely find anything that helps me draw breasts in general too.