"What's Upsetting You Right Now?"

[Quickman]

[spoiler]I can sort of relate since sometimes I get something swelling (sometimes it's ingrown hair or some other form of swelling that I'm not sure what causes it) around my inner thigh and it can be painful when it rubs between my thighs.[/spoiler]

[spoiler]Yeah, this one's painful.  I sometimes get swollen lymph nodes in my groin, so the visit was mainly to rule that out, since the lump is near those and was the same size.  It hurt when the doctor touched it.[/spoiler]

[ViperAcidZX]

I'm worried about my dog. He had a fever for the past few days, he didn't want to eat, and he had problems with his stomach because I don't want to mention some of the grosser things that are happening with him. Right now he's at the vet, and they are taking a look at what's wrong with him and see if he's going to be okay.

[Mirby]

I can't get a job, despite having had 7-8 interviews in the past week or two and feeling really good about all of them. And yet, no callbacks. One even guaranteed me a second interview and that didn't seem to work out because even though I texted them two days later (like they told me to) there was no response.

Why does it have to be so damn hard to get a job?

[Blue Valkyrie]

I can't get a job, despite having had 7-8 interviews in the past week or two and feeling really good about all of them. And yet, no callbacks. One even guaranteed me a second interview and that didn't seem to work out because even though I texted them two days later (like they told me to) there was no response.

Why does it have to be so damn hard to get a job?

I know I mentioned it before-but I had issues job hunting too, just keep putting that resume out anywhere and you'll get a response at some point. Being super persistent is also key, keep calling back till they say no.

[Mirby]

It doesn't help that I'm almost 27 and I've never had an actual job. That's definitely not helping matters.

But yeah, I'm gonna keep trying. What else can I do? that's a rhetorical question btw

[Protoman Blues]

Job hunting is a soul sucking endeavor!

[Waifu]

I am about to start my temp job for the year and already I feel like I don't want to work. I know it is only gonna last for a few months until I become miserable again. 

[Mirby]

At least you have that. An income is a good thing to have.

[Quickman]

A whole big massive steaming pile of bullshit!  Just bullshit as far as the eye can see!  Family bullshit!  Financial bullshit!  Online bullshit!  Oh the bullshit!

Excuse me while I go crawl under the couch and cry.

[Dr. Wily II]

So much bullshit... 

[Quickman]

The stuff in the RP thread was the online bullshit.  I shared it as a word of advice.  Just... don't do that.  If we ever start a Gemsona RP, please for the love of all that is holy, don't do that.  Don't ship your young Gem with an older Gem.  1000 years is the age of consent for Gems.

The family stuff... it's complicated.  The financial stuff has been figured out.  It was related to depression from the family stuff.

[Dr. Wily II]

Well, at least one is settled. 

[Quickman]

I want a new family.  A family that actually loves me.

[Dr. Wily II]

We love you.

[Mr. Haxwell]

I want a new family.  A family that actually loves me.

Same here, buddy; same here. *hugs*

[ViperAcidZX]

We're there for you, Quickie. *hugs*

[Blue Valkyrie]

We're there for you, Quickie. *hugs*

Yeah!*X2 Hugs* 

[Quickman]

To add to the family bullshit...

After many failed attempts to find homes for all the kittens myself, I begged my dad for the umpteenth time to help me take them to the shelter, because my landlord wanted them gone.  He finally, FINALLY agreed and we took the kittens to the shelter.

The whole ride, he chastised and berated me for not finding them homes... when I had been using all sorts of different avenues to find them homes.  This was my last resort and I simply couldn't keep them, but that didn't matter and he yelled at me for it.

I know I'm a complete and utter failure.  I really don't need everyone to just rub it in.

Once I got home, I held Erma and cried.

[ViperAcidZX]

Quickie, don't let pricks like your dad bring you down to their level. You're better than that. You tried your best to find your kittens a home and certainly did more than your dad ever wanted to do with them. Not to mention a very good artist and very good person.

[Quickman]

I'm venting by drawing a body horror pic, so that's been helping a bit.  Also, I've been spoiling Erma.

[Dr. Wily II]

You are not a failure. *hugs*

[Waifu]

My MP3 is busted and I am jsut really bored now.

[Amatiramisu]

[spoiler=Gross. Really.]Had to clean liquid [parasitic bomb] off half my entire niece and threw up everything I ate today in the process. Stellar start to my weekend.[/spoiler]

[Waifu]

I am sorry about that man.

[Blaze Yeager]

[spoiler="Well, if you wanna know..."]I guess a lot of things, really. Mostly being unable to find a decent job because my parents have been harassing me to get one when I'm still heavily involved with trying to get my GED (because I dropped out of HS due to my mental health being out of whack from overworking myself, hence why I said anxiety attacks in the return / goodbye thread) and I'm also now into my early 20s and being a responsible young adult.

In my spare time I also took up psychology to help understand the reasons why I act the way I act, yanno?

Another reason is just pure depression and being stuck in a situation that no one wants to be in at my age. I want to pursue a career in voice-over work and it's something I've been doing in my spare time outside of writing. It's just this atmosphere I'm in and interacting with my family is sort of driving me on the edge a little, so I'm a bit dour and depressed about things as you can see.

I've been through a lot since I started and I'm not gonna lie that I was an idiot. I had it pretty rough during those olden days because my family and I don't really get along as we would like, committed suicide nearly six times and had a brush with a lot of unfortunate things during my HS years.

I'm a guy who writes ideas in the hope that he can escape from himself and the life he has. But at the same time I mentally feel like I'm useless to the world because of this shitty E-rank luck of mine. Ultimately, I give up and just breakdown that I couldn't conquer something today that might help me move on.

But, you know? I can't always be pessimistic or cynical about things. There's always a better day and I ultimately believe that this is just something I have to face. I just have to believe, I guess...

I've done all I can to really get out of things or situations but everything seems to not stay the way for long, sadly. I'm sorry if this was lengthy but, hell, I needed to vent in some way.

I don't have much else to say, really. I think that's been basically up with me the last six or seven years.[/spoiler]