(It was a sub-arc to a main arc, If you read my first post in this RP you'll see why I "Retconned" it.)
Inside Anarchy's Psyche...
A man sits on a chair, its worn, slightly broken. The man is Anarchy, originally known as RMZX. A spotlight is cast on him, the rest of the area is nothing but complete darkness.
A question appears:
"Why do you fight?"
To protect the people I care for.
"Why have you lost your will to live?"
I've lost Stocking, theres nothing I can do to save her.
"You've lost somebody before."
No, I haven't.
"You've lost somebody before"
Yes, but I saved her.
"You've lost somebody before"
Yes, but I brought her back.
"How?"
She came back of her own will.
"How?"
She was brought back by me...
"How?"
I made a clone of her in case the original died. It was foolish of me.
"Why don't you try again?"
Because I don't want to.
"Why not?"
Because I felt no love for the clone.
"Why not?"
I didn't feel any emotional attachment.
"Why did you love Stocking?"
Stocking gave me my humanity back, I felt like I could be happy again, I felt I had somebody to protect, in the end, all I did was fail... again... I won't make the same mistakes I did last time, It'd be better if I didn't exist at all.
"You're Wrong"
No. I'm not.
Suddenly, apparitions of people Anarchy has known pop up in spotlights around him.
You don't even try more than once at anything, how could you be so sure she is dead?
Her hairbow was stained with blood.
You're really going to give up? Why did you even bother trying?
If you are going to try and run away from all of your problems then you will get nowhere.
A 4th apparition appeared, her red hair made her identity painfully obvious.
You don't even adknowledge the fact that I cared for you anymore. You seem to regret the time we spent together.
Because I couldn't save you from dying.
You would've been better off not getting involved in the first place! You felt like you had to be the big hero and all it did was get the one person you cared for killed! Then you made some shitty clone of me, you spat on my face essentially, You couldn't just keep me in your memories like a normal person. Now you have a chance to save your new loved one and you won't even go and save her!
I did try.
There is no Try.
There is only...
Success...
And Failure...
I don't want to carry this burden... I JUST WANT IT TO END!
Then end it...
End it all...
you're just going to let down everybody who cares for you. again.
Back in the outside world...
Hm, just as I figured. He appears to have gotten locked into a psychological stare-down. He can't save himself from his own BSoD.
[Oy, sorry bout that, I got NGE episodes 25 and 26 in my head. So I kinda did the same routine.]