Life is sad when you're single.
Mainly because society looks down on you if you are single.
I'm [tornado fang]ing tired of the various status symbols of society, such as being single and (for me, the worst of all) virginity. I blew up at someone because I thought they were trying to put me down for being a virgin. I actually do find it difficult to consider sex a casual act, and IMPOSSIBLE to regard a dating relationship in high school as all about sex. Society's stigma of virginity pisses me off to no extent, and it's getting worse. It's bad to be in high school and a virgin. It's bad to be an eighth grader and a virgin. It's bad to be a seventh grader and a virgin.
Sex is supposed to be a symbol of intense love, devotion, and sincerity that immature schoolchildren are not (as much as they may
think they are) capable of. Virginity is not some curse that you have to get rid of as soon as possible.
...I...I'm sorry, I didn't mean to start bitching again. I'm just going to leave this topic alone, and say...
The thing is, I could change this for myself, and actively try to look for somebody.
I just fear rejection too much to want to risk it.
...I fear my social awkwardness more than rejection, especially now that I have learned to get over my past failure. Once it's off my chest, I'm ready for whatever; getting it ON my chest and presenting it in the right time and place? Don't ask...
To guarantee you don't ask...I confessed to my first (real) crush over Facebook after she left my school. Yep.